Really juz talking..n thinking..

Have you ever had the feeling of thinking you should have something because of how long you've been wanting it, but yet know that judging from ur current circumstances you know it's kinda wrong?

For example, you used to like this dog soOO much last time, but your dad didn't allow you to get it. so you grew to 'not-like' it so as not to feel so sore about it. then a few years later, your dad agrees to have a dog now, provided you take care of it yourself. you got so happy so you bought the dog. however, you've already grown to 'not-like' dogs (in general), and knowing your super busy schedule, your lack of financial resources and other commitments, you know you can't keep this dog - you can't keep it WELL. but maybe because you want to fulfil ur last-time desire of having a dog a long time ago, you try to grow to like it and take care of it. but the cons of having it just bogs you down.. and you just don't feel it's right - for both the poor dog and you. your dog's not getting enough nutrition, not enough attention, when it's sick you've simply got no time to bring it to the vet. what's more, your dog has become more aggresive against you and is doesn't come to you when you call it... you've come to the point that you feel that you REALLY don't want the dog anymore.. you've seen ur current circumstances and you find that forcing yourself to like that dog no matter how much is not gonna work. i mean, of course, sometimes that dog is so damn cute to bits and makes you happy so much.. but there're other times you feel bad because you're not giving back its full worth. what do you do? poor doggie!!

ok this is obviously a fictionous story - where got dog become unattracted to owner one.. and before any of you make ridiculous conclusions that this is a real story for me and my dog - it's NOT. haha.. dun worry, my little Dino's getting all the attention he wants.. and food! and treatment blah blah.. sigh.. nah i was juz thinking about such a circumstance.. what if?

haha.. maybe i'm too bored and have been thinking way too much.. sometimes it's bad for my health. maybe i've been watching too many soap operas.. ewww.. haha..

Yesterday i met up with Ms Quek and she was telling me about all the changes in STC - both in the school and the system plus the student's culture..the way she told me was really hilarious! haha.. she just sounded so funny lah.. you know her (erm, for those of you who knew her..) then after that i met up with my ex-swimmers from JCC and we just talked crap man.. people there were sarah, simon, amanda, shufen, keith and su ann. heard after i left, henry joined them and they walked a lot.. gosh i was already so tired in the beggining of the day already if i had joined them i would have been dead heh. but it was all fun.

Then at night, my bro and his fiance together with Kenley and I went to Carl's Jr to eat super HUGE burgers with diameter of 10cm for dinner! this outlet is at Marina Square.. wha say.. it's damn big, plus the fries are damn lot.. and the drinks are free flow! haha.. it's an American outlet that's why the portions are so big. wha i ate until i almost felt like vomitting. but the food's good! should go try it!

haiyoh.. now i'm waiting for Kenley to call me.. we're supposed to go out today for a nice 'couple's-day-out' lunch and a movie.. (we've not had this arrangement for so long!!) and now he's still at his school's fencing practice or meeting i dunno. he said i should join fencing too, cos i've got fast reflexes, which is an advantage. i dun think i can already lah.. 've got so many commitments.. if i drop something then maybe lah. .but yeah i have the interest. anyway.. argh.. he said he'll end by 11 plus now it's 1! sigh. always have to wait for him. i guess i just have to look for something else to do lah..besides blogging.