Great timing.

I just had a talk with Kenley tonight. not any other talk, but a special one. it was when we voiced out each other's views and disagreements about our relationship and trying to fix problems. we had problems right from the start - stubbornly ignoring them is of no use. i knew that if i wanted this relationship to work, i had to let him know honestly what i'm thinking and i too, wanna know what he's thinking. the conversation was fruitful..it was a bit scary when we spoke of our differences but then i prayed cos i really needed guidance for this cruitial part.. then something just told me to hold on, to not give up on this relationship cos there's hope if we still want it to work. I wanted to hold on, he also wanted to hold on.. there! Praise God it was a enlightening experience. then i realised what was impt in a relationship, (or actually everything else for that matter), is that i've been trying to solve things MY way - with my earthly, limited ideas and perceptions. you know what, it won't work that way. or even if it does, it'll be disastrous. Then i listened to that soft, gentle and persistent prompting in my head that told me to bring it to God. and when i did, you know, things just became better. my mood was lightened, the situation was clearer, i had a heart of compassion and the problem was solved in love.

This was what i concluded: God makes a difference - IF you let Him to. all along i was so selfish and stupid to try to solve such problems all by myself, when my very solution was right with me all along. all i had to do was to have FAITH. Faith that Jesus Christ is Lord, and therefore, give all my troubles unto him. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straight." Prov 3:5. So true. So, so true. you can just try it, and you'll SEE it.. you'll FEEL it.. then, you'll KNOW it. 'Lean not on your own understanding' - that means in cases when you see it's not logically possible (according to our human calculations), we should entrust everything in FAITH, '...and he will make ur paths straight' - aka, EVERYTHING will be alright. It's also true that the Lord only gives us what's the BEST - not second best - and so that's the hope that we have, and what we take comfort in. =)