life is great.

Wow. This is the first picture i've put up in a super long time. that's my bro and i.. love him haha.. two vain/hiao siblings taking pictures in the middle of the night in the spur of the moment. Also cos I've not felt this good for a long time, and just wanted that kodak moment..

Anyway, just had quite a great dinner tonight with Daph (thanks dear!) talking about our school, ex's, life and stuff.. it's quite refreshing and therapeutic to look back and be subtly thankful for where we are right now. I feel really blessed for what has happened to me all this while. Sure I was really angry for the past and mistakes I did (that I sometimes don't really regret that i did them)... But now, i've finally reached the stage where I can see His hand in my life - thank God..

Something worth thinking.

Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the LORD.
He will be like a bush in the wastelands; he will not see prosperity when it ocmes. He will dwell in the parched places of the desert, in a salt land where no one lives.

But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit."
Jer 17:5-8

My loving Dad shared this with me the other night when I was down and heavily burdened with my future. I'm not exactly in a state of depression, cos I believe when the Lord is in the picture, things will be alright. Childlike belief - although naiive, innocent and trusting - is what I should have.

Things will truely be alright when we put our whole trust in God. I don't know why that when my life motto is outlined by Prov 3:5 - "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean NOT on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight" (own emphasis added) - and yet, I can't, or rather, DON'T let go of things for the Lord to do his work. I'm a control freak, just like Monica in Friends.

I just came back from my annual church camp over the weekend and with me, I brought pretty good lessons. I won't drag you readers down with the whole sermon, will just point out some stuff relevant to my life now...which is everything haha..
The first day was about getting our feet 'wet' like how Joshua had to step into the waters of Jordon River to know God's work in his (your) life.
The second day was taking our 'Jericho' where we gotta face our life's challenges by trusting God's commands.
The third day was dealing with the sin in our lives, personally, the sin of pride.

Oh well, that pretty much sums up what i took back with me. Basically, I learnt that when we're really in deep s****, it's not that we've no where else to turn, but to God, but if I just thought - if I just turned to God and surrendering to Him the FULL control (really, letting go), things would be different. Trust is such a easy, yet important thing in a person's life. I mean, we trust almost everytime. I trust that my laptop doesn't crash on me right now as i type such a lengthy blog, I'm trusting my house not to fall on me tonight as my family and I take comfort under its roof. But when it comes to things like life matters, it's just so difficult to let go of things and try to do things the way I want it to be - gosh, it's so cliche to say that - I'm so hopeless sometimes. I'm trusting God to handle my life right now and I'm really trying to let go now...I can't do anything right now anyway, nothing's within my control now.

I'm not sure how to end this blog, but who cares, no one's really reading this right..and I don't even think I'll be reading this again. heh.